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1/22/2006

Can I have a little whine with that?

This is just a big old whine. I won't feel bad if you go away now and don't read any further. You won't find anything positive here. I feel totally and utterly paralyzed, unable to do anything except obsessively read blogs and sit on my arse until I know the outcome of this cycle. I hate waiting for anything. I know I'm not the first and I sure as hell won't be the last but JESUS, please make this next week go fast. My blood results last Friday were good. E2 was 1393 and P4 was 85. Do they mean anything? I really don't know at this stage but my obsession with numbers has not lessened. Tomorrow I go in for more blood draws. I'm really scared because at this stage in my last cycle, my levels dropped drastically. I don't remember what my E2 was but my P4 was only 7. The P4 won't drop this time because of PIO and I know my E2 will drop, but I'm not even sure what's acceptable. I POAS today. Negative. That was just to be sure the HCG had left my system from the trigger. I have 3 tests left. Monday(my birthday), Wednesday and Friday. Beta is on Saturday.

19 Comments:

Anonymous Manuela said...

Sweety... being paralyzed by the two week wait is just par for the course. This is not meant to minimize what you are feeling... just reminding you that it's completely to be expected. I have absolutely nothing to add to your musings regarding the E2 and P4 levels... I just wish I could make the time pass more quickly for you.

In my two week wait, I facetiously asked for fast-forward dust from my readers...

1/22/2006 06:32:00 PM  
Blogger Kellie said...

Your numbers sounded good.

It's good the trigger is gone....

Good luck at your next blood draw. Hope your time goes by QUICKLY!

1/22/2006 06:36:00 PM  
Anonymous Mary Scarlet said...

I hate the two week wait. It is so, so tough. I'm sorry, and thinking of you. And I'm not sure if what you just did technically qualifies as a whine ... but if it did, you would be completely within your rights. Hope it speeds by.

1/22/2006 07:10:00 PM  
Blogger Bugsy said...

Have you thought about changing this around? Instead of the 2ww being a killer, try to think of it, as the time when you "might" be pregnant. I always say that once my period is here I know for sure I am not pregnant, but after O, then I might just be pregnant and I can imagine just a little what that is like.

Oh how I hope that the numbers don't drop on you hun. That beta will be here before you know it. I am crossing my fingers so hard that the next POAS is positive, very positive.

thinking of you.

1/23/2006 01:03:00 AM  
Anonymous Kath said...

Dear Portlairge, Happy Birthday! I can think of a great birthday gift for you... Here's hoping that this week goes by quickly, and that it brings you fantastic news. In the meantime, hang in there, cookie!

1/23/2006 01:14:00 AM  
Anonymous mm said...

Happy bday!! I'm sending virtual cake.
The waiting is the hardest part of all this bullshit. Ugh. Hang in there.

Thank you thank you for your comments over at my place. I can't tell you how much your support means!

1/23/2006 06:58:00 AM  
Anonymous Leggy said...

Happy birthday! The 2ww is so hard- do you have any good books to read or any movies to catch up on? They can be good distractions.

1/23/2006 07:37:00 AM  
Blogger Liz said...

Happy birthday!!

I know how hard the 2WW is. It truly is the worst part of the cycle. Sending sticky vibes to your embies.

1/23/2006 08:58:00 AM  
Anonymous amanda said...

Ah, yes. I, too, love to obsess over the numbers. I so hope you get a fantastic bday present this week.

1/23/2006 09:36:00 AM  
Blogger Vacant Uterus said...

Good luck! I'm in the sitting on my butt reading blogs stage. Hop on over to my place...I've got plenty of chocolate and yummy desserts.

1/23/2006 10:37:00 AM  
Blogger April said...

Just wanted to pop in and say Happy Birthday.

Hoping on every hope that you have what you wish for.

1/23/2006 11:45:00 AM  
Blogger Thalia said...

Happy birthday my dear, and I do hope that the numbers were good today.

1/23/2006 12:00:00 PM  
Anonymous Kris said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I hope the wait is worth it, and you get good news! I'll be thinking lots of positive thoughts for you!

1/23/2006 01:02:00 PM  
Blogger Katie (WannaBeMom) said...

Happy birthday, PL! Breithla Sona!

The wait is too much, and I think you should just do whatever you want during the time. If you want to read blogs 24/7, then that is what you get to do!

1/23/2006 02:49:00 PM  
Anonymous julianna said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

I hope you are hanging in there.

Thinking of you and hoping the week goes by fast but that today is wonderful.

Thinking of you,

1/23/2006 03:45:00 PM  
Anonymous pixi said...

It's impossible to focus on anything else when you're dealing with something so major, I know.

Happy Birthday, btw. Did you pee on the stick today? Is it still early for a second line?

Fingers crossed for you.

1/23/2006 05:27:00 PM  
Anonymous Lori said...

Happy Birthday! I'm hoping this all goes well for you and that somehow the days pass quickly.

1/23/2006 05:35:00 PM  
Blogger Just another Jenny said...

I just hope our whinny blogs help get you through it! I've got everything including my legs crossed for you (trust me, my husbands complaining about the crossed legs).

1/23/2006 06:24:00 PM  
Blogger Lisa said...

Just wanted to wish you good luck. Hang in there, the wait is almost over.

1/24/2006 02:08:00 PM  

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