I'm back

I'm so sorry to have been away for so long. I just looked back and it is almost a month since I posted and still you haven't forgotton me. Kellie, Katie, Boliath, Feebee, Jenny, KellieandKids, Vivean ,Kath and Michelle all came over to ask for an update and to check in. Thank you all. I went for my final appointment with Dr Ding Dong all happy and confident only to find that Betty's heart had stopped. What a blow! Alf was doing great and truly I was very happy and relieved that was the case but I couldn't help but cry for Betty. Once you have seen and heard that heartbeat it is real and when it stops, it's hearbreaking, yet I am so grateful that Alf seems to be thriving. So, I had a good cry, in fact I had several good crys over the period of a few days and mourned Betty's demise and then went on with the agonizing wait for my first OB appointment. In the meantime, my Mother came to stay and she came to that appointment with me. My blood pressure was high so my OB(I'm still trying to think of a good name for her) thought we might need a 24h urine collection. I checked my BP at home for a week and it was fine. When she saw the numbers today, she thought maybe she had scared me on that first visit(she didn't -I love her) This morning it was a litle high when I checked it at work. I do tend to stress myself out about work which is a concern so I'm going to have to learn to take it easy and realize I can't do it all. I am 11 weeks today. Alf measured 11 weeks and 3 days. Monday, I have genetic counselling while B has surgery on his knee, then on Thursday I go for CVS. I am happy today because I saw Alf's heart beat and in less then a couple of weeks we will know our baby's sex. I think it's a girl but I don't care one way or the other. My friend M. who "gets feelings" about things looked at me today and said "you're having a boy" so we'll have to wait and see. I'm sorry this post is all over the place, that's what happens when you don't post for a month. I'll try and be good and keep my posts regular and coherent in future. Thank you again for your concern and good wishes. Happy St Patricks Day to you all. In Ireland we call it Paddy's Day not Patty's Day. Paddy comes from the Irish for Patrick which is Padraig. Patty is short for Patricia. Stay away from the green beer!