Still waiting.................

That would be me. Still waiting.......................

The Waiting Game.

How many posts on infertility blogs have the same title as this one. It seems I am always waiting for something, AF, lab results, to start, for acupuncture to do it's thing. I am not by nature a patient person and waiting really gets to me, although I have to say that infertility has taught me at least to be a little patient. Also, as I get older I realize how fast life is passing (God, how I used to laugh at my parents when they said "wait 'til you're our age, then you'll see how fast time really goes"), and I want to savor it as much as can. IF makes savoring anything very difficult. We are stuck in limboland waiting to see what will happen. Anyway, I digress. I was over at Manana Banana earlier today, and I laughed when Amanda said AF came on as a result of her clean white sheets. So I've put clean white sheets on my bed in the hope the bloody thing will start so I can go in for suppression check and start the stims. I'm a junkie! Lupron is not enough. I need more and more. B and I went to acupuncture today. We've been every week since the beginning of August. I'm am excited to get this cycle really going. I am having positive thoughts and I love S the acupuncturist. She has such a lovely positive energy. She is following the protocol laid out by Randine Lewis in The Fertility Cure. I didn't do this in IVF # 1.

Wishing all of you a Happy New Year

or as we say in Ireland

Athbhliain Faoi Mhaise Daoibh

2006 is the Year of the Dog

and so my pups would also like to wish you all a Happy New Year!

Better be a Better Blogger!

I moved my blog after a measly 3 posts because I realised I did not want anyone I knew to read it. In case I want to bitch. I have been a less than stellar blogger because I spend my time reading on everyone else's blogs, marvelling at how well written they are. I laugh out loud at some of the posts and cry with others. B thinks I am slightly insane. Of course here I am seven shots into the lupron part of my second IVF cycle, when I realize, I'm supposed to blog to try and relieve some of my ever present low grade anxiety. Duh! I am going to copy and paste some of my other stuff over here so it's all together. If that is a serious breach of blogger ettiquette, someone, please let me know. I'll move it back. Ha Ha. I just realized, I had five posts. Wow! Anyway, back to the lupron. I have a mild headache and extremely mild nausea. It was there today when I woke up. When I got home from work B said he was going to the shop to get me a surprise. He came back with this. I laughed but tried it anyway. I thought it wasn't working but after about five minutes I got this cool yet tingling feeling on my forehead where I had liberally smeared it on. When I thought about it, the headache was still kind of there but I had to really think about it. Fot the most part you are just concentrating on the cool tingling and not the headache. I will be quite attached to this for the next week or so until my lupron dose is decreased. Oh, and it doesn't smell. AF should arrive in the next few days and then it's in to Dr. Ding-Dong for U/S and B/W. to see if I can get started on the next stage of my cycle.

If Only It Were True! 

Christmas Shopping.

My best friend since I was eight lives in Chicago and like me, all her family live in Ireland. She left me a message the other day while out shopping for something to wear for her work Christmas Party, that there was just nothing out there and she wanted to fly back to Ireland for the weekend to go clothes shopping. She said the same thing to her sister who bought her a ticket home for a christmas present. I am so jealous, even though I know it will be dark and cold. She will get to see my Mother and I won't. Anyway, I digress. She'll get to buy clothes at home, which I always like to do. I always get such lovely stuff, designed for the normal girl, not the skinny minnies here in LA. So I was reading my favourite blogs and I see that Pamplemousse got new boots and then I was jealous of her because she went shopping at Marks and Spencers.